♥ HONEYYY,

Now, I'm going to tell you why I love Riduan.
It's a very long post, not paragraphed.
Readers (as if there's any), you don't have to read.
This post is shiok sendiri and maybe shiok Riduan.

Riduan, I love you very much because you're my first boyfriend who treated me how a girlfriend should be treated. You moved me with your effort and sincerity. (I'm sorry if I'm making you lose face for a while) I love you how you took the effort to find me in school magazine just after seeing me in kfc for a few times. After knowing my name, you googled it and searched page by page till you found my blog. Lucky you, I haven't private it at that time. Hee. It took you a few days before you added me in msn, and another few days before you started a chat with me. Your effort showed me how sincere you were in finding me out. :) And you didn't go the easy way: "Eh girl, I want your number ah." Big LOL. I love your courage when you put away your fear of relationship. I was touched when you said something like this: "At first when I chatted with you, I thought that I should stop all these because of my previous relationships. But when I found out that we have many things in common, I'm falling for you even more." :) I love you dear. Yes, we have many things in common. Be it likes, dislikes, habits, anything. Yes, we seemed to have a lot of fate too. :) I remember, 270509, I was on the way home from training, with Liliana. That day, I told her that I had a crush on you and that very night, you confessed to me. Coincidence much? Maybe. Hee. You don't know how excited I was. You were so nervous till you "fainted". I find it amusing now how I easily said, "Actually I like you too." Oh good times! Haha. So many cute memories of us last time. You had a near-death experience, you kept on relating me to Muthu (Yes, the security guard), you bought me a whole bag of presents for my birthday, and you even spy on me from your art room! I even caught you grinning away! Hee. We merely knew each other for a month yet we had our date and time all planned. You asked me to choose a number from 1-10. I chose 18 heheee, but you said too long. I chose 8, you still didn't want. Tak tau sabar, hehehe. So we wanted to go by the "gang group 369". Big LOL heeee. But I wasn't free on 030609. So somehow it was postponed to 050609. I like the number 18 while you like 25. Combine them and you get 1825. We met around 1820 yet it took you 15 minutes to ask a question. How cute of you. :) I remember how you asked me to place my hand on the table and I placed it so awkwardly. Yet, you didn't have the courage to hold it. Hehe. I was officially yours at 1835, not 1825. :) We shared cheezels and took pictures together. Awwww. I love how you asked me to be your girlfriend. :) I guess many people ask it through messages or msn. I find it sweet of you to ask me face to face. :) And again, this shows me that you're very sincere. :) I love you. After I got home, I couldn't believe that I'm really attached. I kept asking myself, "Is this for real?" I was so happy dear, really. :) But a week after we got together, I had to go for my badminton overseas training. It was really hard to leave you just after a few days being yours. I still remember how shy I was in the bus when I told Shahirah, "Eh. Aku rindu dia." Hee. However after I was back, we started "fast forwards" in our relationship. I remember where we first held hands, where we first hugged, where you first kissed me and where I first kissed you. :) You are so sweet to me dear. Nearly every monthsaries were planned by you because I'm a lousy planner and I refuse to plan. I'm sorry dear Riduan. But I swear, every time I go out with you, I have so much fun. Even if it's not our monthsary. I really do. :) Throughout our relationship, you've changed me into a better person. Yes I'm not friendly to the boys as much as I do last time, because I understand, I'm someone's girlfriend already. :) It wouldn't be nice if people see me and say, "Dah ade matair pun nak menggatal." Hah I'm not a bitchhhhhh. Hehehehe! I behave more maturedly (I believe so) and I don't lose temper easily (outside). And I still don't vulgar. (Maybe a little secretly, hehe) Being with you really makes me feel happy. Yes, I felt that I've lost my friends when I'm with you. Furthermore we got separated in the terms of class. You always advise me to spend time with them. And yes I finally did during sports fest. And I'm glad I didn't lose my friends afterall. :) Or rather our friendship got better. :) See, you're my good guy! I know my temper and attitude at home is horrible. I'm sorry dear. I'll really improve on that. But I don't regret getting to know you, being friends with you, then start this relationship with you. I swear I don't and I know I won't. :) Even when we had hard times, we didn't argue at all. And I'm still proud of it. I'll be more proud if I can say that none of us mentioned that word, but you did when you were desperate. I understand you dear, and I will support you till whenever I can. I promise. :) Like what I said in the message I sent you on 050610. I don't expect much, I just want you to love me whole-heartedly. I need your trust and honesty. All these are enough dear. :) I really don't expect much. I think this is more than "Why I love Riduan" post. But who cares! I love him very much. My pasal lah want to brag about him. Nyaha! I like leh. You like? I don't care.

Okay it's time to sleep. I've been sleeping like at 3am for the past few times. I wanna sleep now. Riduan, stop tersengeh-sengeh okay. Later your mum see. Love you! :) I love my friends too! Byebye.